Here is wishing all my readers a Happy New Year! May all that you wished for and hoped for become yours.
And this new year sees me blogging at the start of a new day and the new year wishing you all. In other words, at home doing nothing...
Another year has passed by... I have grown fatter, have more grey hairs than the last year and perhaps just a tad wiser. And have seen another year go... Was this year that insignificant I ask?
And then comes the answer... I started work. Went from being a workoholic to realising that I do want a life. Hopefully the new year will see me doing things I enjoy and keeping business and pleasure different. :p
But beyond this achievement of employment, I see nothing else. Havent been to the moon yet. Hvnt published my book. Few things I wanted to do. Heheheeh. I am still serious abt the book though.
As a child I presumed I could conquer the world! I could find new scientific theories, publish new books, become the Prime Minister. All that was required was for me to intelligent and me to work hard. I have come to realise that I cant do one and may not be the other.
I emphathise with Emanuel Derman ( My Life as a Quant) when he says he wanted to be another Einstein at 16; another Feynman at 21 and a future Lee at 24. At 35 he merely envied the postdoc in the office next door because he had been invited to give a seminar in France.
Do we give up because people around us tell us things are not possible? Or do we just stop believing what our parents told us about hard work and determination?
I know...Not a very nice feeling to have on the new year. This too shall pass. Perhaps I will go and "achieve" something substantial. Or perhaps I will just get used to the idea of being a nobody. Think I will go to sleep now.
