As a child I had a very bad habit of scribbling at every given opportunity, in every paper and on all the walls. Not that I think of it as a bad habit. Ever noticed how most things that you want to do are labelled under "bad habits"? Else it is just a crazy thingie to do! Anyways scribbling is somethingie I still enjoy! Gayathri used to be so patient while I used scribble my way to glory, ofcourse in her notes!!
And all these dayz that I have been on my yum bee yae I had to restrain myself- 'cos I simply had to grow up! and also 'cos most folks here are also trying to "grow up" and dont take kindly to such stuff!! And so I had to stop doing somethingie that my fingers always wanted to do!! And when after a one whole year of self restrain I did "it" my neighbour had the "are you crazy" kinda look and erased the whole thingie!! Gosh do I miss Gayathri!!
And that was one I realised something! It is much easier to erase stuff while it takes much effort and time to actually "create" something! Oh yeah! Big deal!! But why do you need to erase things just because they dont fall in line with certain standards? Why change yourself so that you conform to certain "standards"? While going around with an eraser in hand, doing d politically rite things and erasing off d other stuff may seem only proper, are you really listening to yourself? Doesnt that count too? What do you want to be? The pencil that may be wrong at times but is still proud of all the mistakes that it has done, the eraser that goes about being critical about everybody else or one of those hybrid pencils with an eraser attached that of its own accord erases things it doesnt deem fit enough! What about the pen you might ask? I would still prefer the pencil to the pen 'cos the pen doesnt have a choice.The pencil decides to let something remain out of choice.
I am proud of being a pencil.I have made lots of mistakes but I am not ashamed of them. These experiences have made me what I am and in a sense reflect the person I am. Given a chance I would still make them!
